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Yours truly,
"One boy.One girl.Hearts beating wildly.To put it mildly,it was love at first sight.He smiled,I smiled and there it was when he call out my name,and i knew right away:this was the day I have been waiting for all my life.For a moment,the whole world revolved around me and only me"
Atikah Adilah

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I'm ready for your drama



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Kakak Ifah Wan Ana F Sue Namirah Ziela Nisa Fara Lynneh Aisyah Elfie Bibbib Sally Ainina Sean Syahirah/C Shaiha/C Nazahah/C Nadhirah/C Zulaiha

you deserve much better than me


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XOXOXO

like the storm misses the rain
Friday, October 15, 2010 2:02 AM

CEPAT CEPAT HABIS KAN WHAT YOU NEED TO FINISH PLEASE.
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY BABY )':

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and you came along
Thursday, October 7, 2010 12:20 AM

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I fell in love with him a million times.The first time was when I first laid eyes on him,the rest…every time I looked at him.

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I just want you to know
Monday, September 6, 2010 1:30 AM





Life,my life.How have it been thus far?I suppose there are some good and bad here and there.But to sum up my 2010,it really am not going the way I wanted it to be.Life in a place called REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC have been pretty much sucky and shitty.

Having science injecting into my nerves and brains is very deadly please.I mean kudos to those who are smart and are able to get good grades and able to study their ass out,good for you.But here I am,freaking hopeless this time round in year 2.

Motivation to study is ZERO.K-O-S-O-N-G. 

Distractions aside,I just can’t seem to be looking at the 6ps even for 5 minutes.It irritate the hell out of me.I guess I have chosen the wrong pathway to pursue my study.It sucks,it really sucks.The only thing that is keeping me going is my family.They always come into my mind whenever I feel like quitting everything about school.I just want to do my parents proud.

Sigh,let’s just hope for the best.





What’s not to love about you? ♥

Hi.Thanks for making my live complete for the last three months.You have been a really great person in my life.Endless love,endless encouragement and support and a lot more that I think I don’t need to say out.

You know,after K,I really thought to myself,maybe I couldn’t love as much anymore like how I love him.But then,you came along not long after,proving me that whatever I thought was actually wrong.

Yes,since Jay,I’ve been dating here and there.But not one,not even K make me feel like going into a relationship,and yet you did.What’s so special about you huh till I waste so much energy on just a person,farz?Dating you have been a bless but I….I really want more now.I want to be yours :’) 

But you had never popped the question so I guess I just have to go with the flow.You may or may never ever ask me but I’ve been praying hard about it.Hopefully by my birthday?Haha something near to impossible I know but I’ll just keep praying for it.

Honestly,you are not that kind of guy that is to die for.I’m being very honest here.But idk,I’ve fallen in love with every single flaws of yours.Hints have been given to you silly on how much I love you on fb,but you don’t seem to be getting it or….maybe you do and chose to ignore it.

You gave me hope to be in a relationship once more.But I want it to be with you,not others.So silly,please get the hint soon.

i’m a sucker for the sweet talkers,the ones that treat me right.The ones that call randomly or just to say goodnight.The ones that challenge me & make me face my fears.So you better do something about it cause I may just fall into the trap of another man.If you don’t treat me right,don’t be mad when someone else start to.

Sigh fml.


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Dear me,
Sunday, August 1, 2010 1:54 AM


Dear Atikah,
It starts off texting all the time.Sending each other smiley faces,making each other smile. Flirting,staying up late at night just having fun.Then things get more serious.You start getting more personal.Then you meet,you kiss him,you fall for him.Then he asks you out.You date.Doesn't matter for how long,but you fall.Fall hard enough you don’t know what’s happening.And when you wake up,you’re left with reality.He leaves you in a matter of not even a month,or maybe more.But in the end,it’s all the same.You always end up with a broken heart.And you keep going back to him because you love him.You’ll take his crap,you don’t care,because all you want is him.And Atikah,you should stop this shit right now cause he'll never come back,he wont.Its already been four damn months he left you hanging,without a single word,you should know better then any one else not to hold on.Move on Atikah,move on.There are people out there,trying to love you,so please.


Love,Atikah.

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Everything would have been easier if you needed me too.
Monday, June 28, 2010 11:59 PM

I know its kind of late wishing sue on my blog but anyways,happy belated 18th birthday!You know I love you many many many and hopefully you liked my gift and the surprise that the girls and I had put up for you!<3 You have always been by my side and I promise I will always be there too.xoxo




 I really don't.Its like,I can't put what I feel in words anymore.Just too many emotions arousing.

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ever been in love with a playa?
Monday, June 14, 2010 2:06 PM

Its not like I intended on this.. falling for you again. It’s not like I want it. All you do is break me, but when I see you, it’s like I forget all that. I forget about the heart you’ve shattered so many times and forget all of the pain I went through.. just for the chance of you holding me again. I miss you. I don’t know exactly why I do, but I miss you.

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How can I stop loving him when he controls my heart?
Sunday, May 30, 2010 10:05 PM


Celebrated Atuk’s belated birthday over at Sembawang Park yesterday.Everything went..well?O,hope you enjoyed this mini celebration Atuk! <3




So this is the birthday cake that we grandchildren actually bought for atuk. Haha cute isn’t it with the design of a man riding a bicycle which reflects my grand dad who is always seen with his bicycle.



I tried telling myself,no more posts about you.But I just had to,cause I still remember and I can’t forget.This is just the place where I can let go of everything,all  my unheard feelings.

Some people ask me,why am I unhappy?Well,there are quite a number of reasons why I’m unhappy but mainly,its just cause I was and still am in love with someone who do not love me back.So I’ve found one big weakness: him.If you asked me how many times he have crossed my mind I would say once because he never really left.Goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who mean the world to you,especially when goodbye isn’t what you want.



Nobody understands how much I miss you, miss how much we used to talk and miss all the thing we use to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you and I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we’re not.


It has been 1 month and 19 days since I last saw your face,
And I’ve been miserably missing you since then.

Yo my Kyle Loza,are you happy now?I hope so :’)



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